The last month has marked some interesting changes for me. But first... the backstory.
In February of 1997, I had knee surgery. The pain when I ran or danced or climbed stairs or walked for long distances was almost unbearable. Nothing really changed after the surgery. I still had quite a lot of pain.
After Michael and I got married, we discovered that if I sat for an extended period of time, my knee would get so stiff that I could barely walk. We joked about a knee replacement as he carried me out of movie theaters. We considered the possibility of needing a wheelchair in the near future. I looked into the requirements for a handicap parking permit.
As time passed and my level of activity decreased dramatically, I found a kind of happy medium between activity and pain. I was able to work 8 hour shifts on my feet, but my time off was spent resting as much as I possibly could. Each of my pregnancies, including the ones that ended in miscarriage, were hard. The pain was almost back to pre-surgery levels. I usually ended up doing a month of physical therapy when I couldn't take the pain any longer. Nothing seemed to help.
My weight had gone up as a result of my decreased activity, four full term pregnancies, and a few different medications I had taken for depression. I am currently close to my highest weight in my pregnancy with the Duchess. I have been holding steady around the same 5 pound range.
When we moved to Alaska, I was looking forward to getting outdoors. The hiking here is absolutely beautiful and I wanted to enjoy it as much as I could before winter. After a couple of months of hiking and climbing stairs left me almost in tears, I finally went to my doctor. Typically, my right knee has been the issue. This time it was my left knee. I was referred to a local physical therapist. The words "possible torn meniscus" and "surgery" were mentioned. I wanted to avoid that at all costs! Surgery didn't seem to do much before and I didn't want to go through that again.
Two days later, one of Michael's co-workers called me as I was leaving the grocery store in town. Michael was being taken to the ER because they thought he might be having a heart attack. All of our focus the next 4 months was spent taking care of Michael. His doctors told him to cut out anything that could possibly cause an elevated heart rate. Coffee and exercise were out. I stayed close by when Michael was at home because I never knew if I would need to take him back to the hospital.
Michael's surgery was at the end of January which coincided with some of our coldest weather here. (highs in the mid to low 30s) My knees started hurting again. Not hiking had eased the pain a bit, but I was back to that happy medium between activity and pain. After all, I still had to climb the stairs.
I finally felt I could take advantage of the physical therapy referral without being concerned about leaving Michael. My therapist is an amazing gal. We'll call her Sarah.* Sarah started with a completely different approach than any of my other therapists. Instead of immediately having me do leg lifts or walk on a treadmill or use a stationary bicycle, she started with exercises to strengthen and stabilize my hips. Then one day, she asked another therapist to consult because he had been using a different manipulation technique with good results. For the next four or five visits, that was all Sarah did. It felt as though she was trying to rip my kneecaps off, but what she was doing was working. One day she asked me to do squats. I have not been able to do squats without pain since before my surgery in 1997. 18 years. I not only did pain free squats, I was able to do much deeper squats.
For the first time in 18 years, I can walk up stairs and it doesn't hurt. For the first time in 18 years, I can do a workout that involves bending my knees repeatedly and I can still walk the next day. Yes, the workouts hurt, but it is muscles that are protesting, not my joints.
Last week, I started a couch to 5k (c25k) program. And yes, I am running without knee pain for the first time in 18 years!! It has been hard. I'm extremely overweight. I'm extremely out of shape. But I am amazed at how God has orchestrated all of this.
You see, back in October, when I finally got the referral approved from my insurance company, Sarah was about to go on maternity leave. She had been back at work perhaps a week when I finally got around to setting up the first appointment. I believe that she is the therapist God had in mind and while I wish Michael had not experienced the heart issue, I am thankful that it caused me to wait until February before going to therapy.
Where do I go from here? Well, I have three more therapy appointments scheduled. After consulting with Sarah, I will be doing the c25k program twice a week, a workout video that is squat intensive once a week, and walking the other four days a week. In addition, I will continue the strengthening and stabilization exercises. Sarah told me last week to be prepared. She was going to come up with some tough new exercises for me to add in to my routine. I am also working on better eating habits. Sugar and cold seem to be the two major factors that currently contribute to my joint pain. I can't change the cold. I love being outside in the cool weather. I can change the food. I'm ignoring the call of the Congo Bars as I write...
I am hoping to be able to run consistently again. I loved feeling the wind on my face and hearing the sounds of feet on the pavement. Our goal for Michael's retirement is to hike the Appalachian Trail. Whether it is a section hike or a thru hike, I need to be ready. Running, and hiking, around here is like being in paradise. The scenery changes from minute to minute and is breathtakingly beautiful.
The time outdoors doing the c25k has become a prayer time. I may only run for 6 minutes out of 25, but I am running because of God's great provision. And every time I run without knee pain, I am thankful. I am thankful when my calves cramp on my 4th run instead of my 1st. I am thankful when I see Miss E encouraging her sisters and hollering back to let them know when we are running and when we are walking. I am thankful for the 25 mile an hour wind at my back to keep me going and I'm even thankful for it being in my face to cool me down during the last half of the workout. It did catch Michael and his coworkers off guard though. They had been doing a gym workout that ended with a 15 minute run. They decided to run outside just as I was finishing my run. Yep, they didn't discover how strong the wind was until they were headed back to the gym.
I know this has been long, but I just wanted to share this with you.
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not her real name